Pre Season task - Introducing myself

IHi my name is Donna & this is my 16th round. I have had some really successful rounds & some not so. I have tried a few different fitness levels that 12wbt offer & so far 10k has been my favorite. This round I have decided to join the Move 2 program. I chose to go back to basics for a number of reasons. My confidence or lack of has been 1 of the reasons but my main reason is because I'm suffering from major depression. I find it hard getting out of bed each morning so it has been a constant battle to exercise. Lately my eating patterns has varied. This has seen me over eat & under eat & has been a major reason for my weight gain. 

I know I can't use these as an excuse but  it has been a huge factor in my journey. I did manage to get to goal weight a couple of years ago where I could happily say I had lost 50kgs. Although I can't say this is the case now I do know I'm no where near the 120kg I used to be. I owe so much to this program. It truly does work. I hope you all have a great 12 weeks & beyond.

Letter to myself

Dear Donna,

You did it!!! You signed up for your 16th round. I have a few questions I want you to answer honestly.

So how are you feeling about rejoining 12WBT

If I'm completely honest with myself I'm totally freaking out. You would think by now I would have it all figured out but I don't I'm really scared that I'm going to fail. I seem to start of perfectly but then it goes downhill from there. Right now I'm really angry & frustrated with myself.

Why do you feel this way?

When I weighed 120kg I promised myself that I would never get back to that person. Even though I'm nowhere near to where I used to be it scares me. I am noticing my old patterns are creeping back in & I'm scared & embarrassed. I know what it felt like when I lost 50kg & I want to feel like that girl again.

What do  you feel the biggest challenges are going to be for you this round? 

The biggest challenge for me will be my mindset. I don't like myself at the moment & the negative thoughts & feelings that I about myself get me down & that's when I crave junk food. I use I'm too busy as an excuse because I know I'm not.

What will it take to overcome these challenges?

I think if I'm going to overcome this I need to be kind to myself. I'm going to to try & write 1 positive thing about myself or something I proud of daily. I need to stop hiding myself away & just get myself back out there.

What achievement (s) will make you the proudest?

To be honest & as embarrassing as it might sound, I think just getting out of bed at a reasonable time will be one of my proudest achievements at the moment. I'm going to take each day as it comes & I know if I can keep my nutrition to 99% that would make me proud.

Who will be your main supporters?

I have learnt that I don't need to do this alone. My friends who I have met through 12WBT know & understand how hard this weight loss journey is & I know I can reach out to them & not feel as embarrassed.

What words of encouragement would your friend or loved one give you right now & at the start of this journey?

Donna it is going to be okay
We are here for you
Take one step at a time
We understand.

Best wishes for this round. I know you can do this

Love Donna xx